At Crossroads of Belief & Faith

Its a perfect day to write on this topic and the reason why I'm writing this is because I often find myself at crossroads. I'm a Protestant- Christian. Yes, I know it sounds so weird, considering I have a typical Hindu, Indian name. Cutting long story short, but my dad (Karam Vir Singh Thakur) was a Hindu before he got married to my mom (Elizabeth Thakur) and yes I do get my middle name from my dad. 

Infact I love my middle name so much, that I named my blog after this. 'Karam- Korner". Well "करम " is very close to the word "कर्म / Karma", which means an action or deed which relates to the entire cycle of cause and effect. In Hindi we often say "Ache karam karne se, acha fal milta hai" , which means if you do good deeds, you will bear fruitful results. And its your good deeds which gets your good karma. I'm a strong believer and follower of Karma. Doing good is not meant to be shown to others, its a unconscious effort.According to Sigmund Freud's theory " the unconscious continues to influence our behavior and experience, even though we are unaware of these underlying influences". Hence if doing good is not in our unconsciousness state, it cant be taught and made conscious or aware of. It has to come from within, which is your "Self".

The reason why I feel I'm at crossroads is because I come from a typical protestant background, which in many ways is "orthodox". Not that I have a problem with it, but sometimes I do tend to question my belief and the belief my church preaches. What is belief? A belief is an assumed truth at the end of the day. But to have this kind of belief, you should have the Faith and faith is nothing but a strong belief on something. Off late I have been reading and talking about my religion- Christianity. The Bible is almost like the rule book for Christians around the world. It needs great understanding of the deeper meanings it has to teach and this is possible by understanding from the people of god who deliver its message. Most often I don't go to Church. But the Bible commands us to take a day of rest - a "Sabbath" - after working for six days and the seventh day is meant for Church.  

 I'm still finding my faith and this will take time. Meanwhile I will continue to go to Church, as often as I can go because I do believe that there is a power greater and higher than us. 

Only time can tell......